Getting healthy..

I've been struggling with my bod for a long time now...I can't really explain what's going on, but I just don't feel fit at all. And you know what they say..'Skinny girls look good in clothes, fit girls look good naked'...And I wanna look good naked! It's frustrating because I've been a huge fanatic with sports over the years...I did gymnastics, I danced intensively for ten years, and now... I don't do anything. Mainly because I don't have the money, or time to take an hour out every week to do some work outs. Lame, and it is an excuse...but how do I get this tired?

Getting healthy, eating right, and getting that fit body..isn't about crash dieting, or doing it short term. It's a change in lifestyle.. You have to have discipline...and just make that click in your head. I did two years ago... I was going through some stuff, and I found my comfort in eating a lot...like some of us girls do. boohoo :)

But I had enough of it, and decided to quit drinking soda's. No more coke, ice tea, lemonade...no more fast food or sugars, just healthy stuff. But it is harder than it looks. The soda's was no problem, I haven't had a drop off coke or ice tea since two years... it's gotten to that point, where I don't even like it anymore. So I drink water or bubbled water all the time. The fastfood is the hard part, im not big on the sweet stuff, but it's the fries, and the hamburgers, and the pizza....thats the dangerous stuff for me.

But what I do, is I have one day...that I allow myself to eat everything BAD. One day a week... that I can eat whatever I want, is it the chocolate cake? SURE, or nachos with cheese sauce? SURE. And at the end of that day...I'll feel so bad...I eat healthy the rest of the week. That's the idea behind it, and it went well for a year or so...but then it started to be two days a week, or maybe three. I just love food.

But it has to change again..what I find hard is the fact that my body holds on to a lot of fluids...I don't know how to get rid of that....any tips on that would be nice!

What I need to do is this :

*Drink a glass of water in the morning, and add some freshly squeezed lemon juice in there...to get your system going. there's something about the lemon juice, thats good..dont know what exactly...but it helps.
*Eat six small meals a day... salads, two slices of spelt bio bread, small portions, it's all about portions.
*Only have one PIG DAY!!!!
*do my pilates exersizes before going to bed, and when I get up in the morning.
* Use some olive oil, balsamic vinegar and lemon juice as a dressing on your salad.
*drink loads of water
*no more chips, salty stuff, only on pig day, or in small portions.
*eat a lot of green vegetables, spinach, salads.

I know all this....but it's so damn hard sticking to the system!!! I hate being a girl... when you grow older..everything becomes not tight... you get little chubbies a long side your tummy and ass...and not the good kind, plus it's really hard to get rid off!

HELP ME!

I'm sorry for the nagging.. needed to vent.

xoxo

Marc Jacobs RTW SS2013 - fav pieces!

Because I'm a stylist it is my job to stay on top with everything in fashion land. I'm not someone who follows trends, if something catches my eye, I'll save it. But people expect me to know everything about fashion..but thats not the deal...at all. It's not that I don't try..but there's just too much.. I have my favorite designers, and I will check up on stuff...but no way that I know every designers name...or history. But I came across some images of  Marc Jacobs ready to wear Spring collection 2013, and I'm a huge fan of black and white graphic designs. Absolutely adore them! Here are some of my fav's of his collection!

For them rich bitches out there...Shop his collection here.

DimePiece

I love instagram! late at night when I'm struggling with insomnia..I start surfing the net, especially instagram, because it's an easy way to stay on top with the latest fashion brands, that pop up everywhere, you can see what everyone's up to. and wearing..and I just save it, and check it out the next day. The same thing happened last night! I discovered this amazingly cool streetwear brand ' DimePiece'. 

Founded in Los Angeles in 2007, by two very cool ladies ; Ashley Jones and Laura Fama. This brand stands for girlpower, and cool designs. It's straight forward, strong, and daring.

 'Dimepiece is a lifestyle and a someone. She is no less bold in her dress than in her mentality. She is a charming vision of powerhouse feminist meets eccentric daydreamer. She is independent, forward-thinking and lives out loud.'

Check out their website. 

My very first .com :)

I finally updated my website..and got myself a .com. So excited.. So take a look at my page, and let me know what you think of it. There's still a lot of work that needs to be put online..so for more information on that you can just keep an eye on my facebook page.

Go to my website.

Who I am

So I needed to get some stuff off of my chest.. Life is weird, it throws stuff at you...and depending on how you react, your life gets created. 'Everything happens for a reason' I know that, and I strongly believe it. Sometimes I think God is trying to tell me something, and he's definitely trying to show me stuff... but in a hard way.

My life is a huge ball of stress at the moment. But I love my job! I've always wanted to do something in fashion, and my dream job was a wardrobe stylist. Look where I am now? and I love it. Sure it has shitty parts..what job doesn't? But sometimes I struggle,  It is a hard and expensive world out there... So I make choices, that revolve around money..and opportunities. And I do not like to make decisions just because that shit is paid and that isn't. But that's the reality. And I have a tough time with it.

 I also have a tough time, pleasing everybody. You can not please everyone around you! I've tried that..and failed every time. I can not say no... it breaks my heart. I want to say 'YES I would love to help you out'... to everyone... But I can't. I can only do so much...Sometimes I forget to respond to messages people send me, not because I'm a stuck up bitch that thinks she's too good for everyone..but because I genuinly forget..my mind forgets things, because I'm juggling several projects at the same time.

What hurts the most..is People who I knew/know well, have their opinions about me...For example, they think that I'm this bitch who has better things to do than to meet up with them..Like I do not want to spend time with my friends? I'm working, 24/7.. This past weekend, everybody's at home chilling, monday day off...not for me though..I was shooting! i'm constantly working, day and night. And with working I do not mean, making huge amounts of money..Because that is not the reality...I'm making my future. Because I want to create something for myself that I can be proud of. I don't like people who think they know me... or get mad at me, because I made the wrong decision in their eyes... I'm doing the best I can. But I need to stop and try to please everyone else..and just start by doing right by me! Put myself first, what do I want?

I hate disappointing people though, especially if I know them well... Because I hate it when people are upset with me, or think I'm a bitch. When all I ever want to do is be honest, and upfront. I'm human, I cry..and I get hurt.. my feelings get hurt.. and sometimes I feel very lonely, because It feels like I'm trying to do the impossible..and I dont want to burden people with all of my feelings and shit.. So Sometimes I talk out loud, so that I can express the way I feel about stuff... I sing. I listen to music. I try to deal with every crazy thing God or who ever is up there, throws at me. But life is CRAZY. And sometimes everything works out...and sometimes it doesn't. In the end, all the dots will get connected..and you will become who ever you're supposed to be. I sure hope so.

xoxo